I finally decided to use that gift card today. So I stuck some cool books in my cart (yay)! But I had ten dollars left (also yay!). And I didn't know what to buy.
After pondering for quite some time WHAT I should buy, I remembered To Write Love on Her Arms. Remember when I saw them last November and it was amazingamazingamazing? Well, those beautiful people made a movie. And once I remembered that, I flipped out and added it to my cart. And then I was set. (Except the tax was fifty-something cents over. Sorry, mom.)
But back to the point. Because of remembering TWLOHA, I went over to their blog. And I saw Jessica Morris's most recent post title: "Beautiful. Loved. Enough."
I've been fairly down lately, and a little depressed and super stressed out. And just seeing that post title brightened my day a bit. My soul just . . . relaxed. I remembered that even when I don't love myself, God does, and he always thinks I have a beautiful purpose. While I was reading the post, I began to accept myself again, to remember that even when I'm feeling meh and I'm stuck in a muddy rut and I really, honestly don't feel like getting up, I have a reason to.
And I think I'm beginning to breathe again.
p.s. thanks, pastor.