15.1.14

and then the gun went BAM (or something like that).

Killing characters...
Said character, Alyssa {via}
*Sigh.*
I've done it before. I think I counted six characters that I've killed. They were either bad guys or people you heard about dying and never actually met. I could handle that.
This is about to change. It was supposed to have changed probably about an hour ago. But, gee, I never thought it would be this hard. This character is lovable and silly and goofy and gorgeous and caring and a blonde even though she has brown hair.
And I'm going to kill said character.
I was supposed to have killed said character about an hour ago. And I really need to, because this book is for my Novel in a Year class, so it's homework, and homework has these annoying little things called due dates.
*Sighs again, even more dramatically.*
I've been procrastinating. I was on Pinterest, and then I read some blog posts, and now I'm here. Oh, and there was this sevenish-minute period where I was pacing around the house like a crazy person muttering to myself about how "I can't do this." Then I made some tea, which is now gone.
Asdfghjkl; I. Can't. Do. This.
But I guess I'm going to have to, huh? Tonight, preferably, if I don't mind (which I do).
Ugh. Okay, whatever. I'm going to write the stupid scene and get it over with.
Many sad tears and terribleness,

Bekah Joan
Edit: I did it. I posted this at a bit before 10:00. It's 11:27, and the scene is done. Now on to the next, even scarier scene. But she's dead, the poor thing, and I'm feeling quite guilty. Her mother can barely move. Her friend is basically about to commit suicide. I'm exhausted. Goodnight.

13 comments:

  1. :( She's lovely!! I don't want to kill anyone... ever. But I already have it plotted out in my NaNo 2014 novel :P. I hope I don't get attached....

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    1. Ugh, I know. I'm the same way. In another one of my books, I created a character just to kill her off, and I'm so attached that now I don't think I could bear it. But I'm going to try and go through with it. And as for Alyssa...Well, it's done. The poor thing. </3

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    2. Poor, poor thing...

      TW Wright
      ravensandwriting.blogspot.com

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  2. I think the question is not when but how. Since he's adorable and goofy and all that, is he going to merely fade away as the result of a grievous injury, or will it be violent death by the gun or knife? Or maybe a slow death by sophisticated torture... The possibilities intrigue me. Love your new profile pic, by the way.

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    1. Bullet through the head, so violent I suppose. But...asdfghjkl; I can barely *think* about it. It's terrible. Although I have come up with creative ways to kill other characters, this one was different. Very, very hard.

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  3. This made me laugh and made me sad. Laugh, because you were pacing and talking to yourself. Made me sad, because it's terrible to have to kill characters! :/

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    1. It is. Oh, it is.
      Well, I'm glad to have at least made you laugh. :p

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  4. I. *Totally*. Understand.

    In my first book I created the absolutely coolest old lady, the only friend my main character had. She was sassy and sharp, full of life and vigor. As soon as they had their first conversation, I said to myself, She's not going to last long.

    My current record across two books is two little old ladies dead. The might change as I write my second draft of my second book, but it still haunts me that I can be so cold as to judge a character's worth alive or dead. But we're authors. That's all part of the job.

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    1. For your first book, if you're talking about A Year Under Streetlights, then YES. I was heartbroken when you killed her. </3
      And, yeah, it's probably one of the worst parts of our job, isn't it? Worst and definitely necessary.

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  5. Oh, the pain... I completely understand. I haven't killed any significant characters yet, but... I'm afraid the time is coming. I've thought about it, and I could not bring myself to give the final blow. I've been close a few times, and I was actually crying over the keyboard. May you rest in peace, Alyssa. Killing a character is never easy, no matter how much you prepare yourself.

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    1. Awwwwww </3 I know how you feel about the whole crying thing. I haven't done that over one of my characters, but I know it will come, and with a very lovable character of mine.
      Yep, not looking forward to that.
      I wish you strength for when you find yourself having to give the final blow.

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  6. This is SO true. I can totally relate.

    I'm writing my first "novel" (it might be a novelette lol) and it's about the Horatio Spafford family... If you know anything about that story you know that I have to kill like 6 or more people in one story... Yeah. That's what happens when there's a shipwreck...

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    1. AUGHHHH that story breaks my heart ever time I think about it, or I sing "It is Well with My Soul" or anything like that. So. Sad. </3

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